Well, the time has come. The time that I have been ruminating in my head for years, since I started AGtube back in 2009. All the hours of school work and the stress of achieving good grades has finally paid off. Im going to college!
It's an exciting time for sure, filled with choosing classes and shopping for my dorm. But it's also a very sentimental time, because I am moving away from home. I have lived under the same roof with my family for my whole life, but now, I am going to take on the world solo.
Soon, my home will become nothing more than my childhood house, my friends will become memories, my relationship with my parents will change completely. Few things will remain constant. And that's scary.
But change is natural. And it's something Im learning to embrace. Going to University is scary, because everything is new--but that is also the reason it's exciting!
I don't know what Im going to study yet; I have way too many interests. But Im planning to focus in sciences and social sciences. I might do a double-major, to accommodate all my interests. Outside of classes, I plan on joining the runners club, an accapella group, and maybe even a sorority. But for the first year, I am living in the freshman dorms with my roommate, who is also an international student (she's from South Korea!).
I am unbelievably excited to experience college life. It will be fun, for sure--living with thousands of people my age.
Still, these last few days have been filled with goodbyes. I said goodbye to my father on Sunday, because he was leaving for a business trip. I cried incessantly because there is something so poignant about a dad saying goodbye to his baby girl. Then, last night, I said goodbye to my boyfriend, and cried some more. This morning, I said goodbye to my best friend as she left for college, but for some reason, I didn't cry--I felt a strong sense of excitement for her. We have been best friends for 11 years, so I know our friendship won't change much. With my dad, and my boyfriend, it was different, because our relationships will change drastically in the coming months.
And now, I am faced with another goodbye--to basilmentos. This is not the end, but its definitely a new chapter. I am moving forward, becoming an adult, and leaving so many things behind (dolls included).
Still, I refuse to let go of something that makes me so happy. Even if I can't make videos frequently, basilmentos will continue--it is my pride and joy, and keeps me smiling every day. When I come home on breaks, I will make videos, and I will probably check in with you guys through instagram or blogger every once in a while, even while Im at school.
So, you will be seeing a lot less of me. But this is not the end, it's just a new chapter.
I would like to end this blog post with a huge thank you for your support. I have been on youtube for 6 years now, and the response to my videos has been incredibly positive. You always make me feel good about myself and you inspire me every day. I wouldn't be where I am today if it weren't for you.
In fact, your support through youtube has afforded me this opportunity to go to college. After a very successful interview where I discussed my youtube career, the university offered me a great scholarship. I plan to buy textbooks, dorm supplies and food using my google adsense money. So, you guys are helping to pay my way through university!
Still, monetary issues pale in comparison to the love you have shown me. AGtube is such a beautiful, supportive place. Whenever I feel down, I can read comments or fan emails and my day instantly becomes brighter. You guys have always made me feel at home and appreciated, and for that, I am forever grateful. No matter what happens in these next few years, I will never forget your generosity.
Alright, here we go! Time to take on the world.
The story behind it all....
In September of 2009, a pre-teen girl named Anna was searching youtube. She no longer used her american girl dolls. they were behind the closet doors, gathering dust. She reluctantly glanced over, then began to type in the search bar: American Girl Dolls. A video came up. She clicked on it. 14 coustumed dolls slid onto the screen and began to dance together, waving their arms and doing cartwheels. Anna was shocked. How could this be possible? This was.... Amazing. She quickly searched a few more. There were hudreds of videos, by usernames like stephenswodadancer, AGlovejess and girloftheyearstudios. Anna couldn't believe it. This new discovery was incredible! She ran to her room and pulled out her two dolls, felicity and samantha. She grabbed her camera. And, she began to film.
It is now four years later. I work on videos almost everyday, usually stopmotions. I have gathered quite a few veiws and subscribers on youtube, and I really appriciate when people comment on my videos. I have come unbelievibly far, but I still leave up those first videos from two years ago, because for me, those are the memories that I will always treasure. I am so happy that I can share them with you.